It’s been a brutal summer and I just haven’t been able to sit down and concentrate on writing much of anything lately. Today is the first day we’re not going to see highs in the mid-90s or above, and if that’s not a metaphor for how I’ve been feeling, I don’t know what is. OK, in truth, I may not know what it is, but it feels like a metaphor, so go with me on this one.
The biggest thing is that Nicole’s cat passed after 20 years of being there for her. Tricksie is the best cat I’ve ever known and, while it is unquestionably a wonderful thing that she lived as long and well as she did, it’s all a feeling of loss right now. My chest hurts writing this and I can assure you that, whatever I’m feeling, Nicole is feeling is many times as much.
Work hasn’t been great, either. I’m hesitant to go into too much detail, but we’re at the point now where I feel almost nothing but dread. Fortunately, I can operate in this mode for long periods of time. I’ve outlasted more situations like this than I care to recall, but it’s still not a lot of fun and my internal resources for dealing with it are pretty low.
Oh, and I did something to my shoulder. I presume it’s the rotator cuff, but I haven’t seen a doctor yet to confirm it. I tore something on the elliptical machine and it’s not getting any better. Reaching is incredibly painful, so doing stuff like changing shirts is not great. I’m scheduling an appointment to get it looked at, but I know enough about shoulders to know that this will likely end in surgery.
So…that’s my recap. That’s what’s been happening the last 3+ months. It’s not much, to be honest. I’ve been in a rut. I just haven’t had the energy to do much anything I’ve wanted to do. No writing, no music, no reading…just trying to get through the day/week/month.
But…today is the first day of fall. It’s not really the first day of fall, but it feels like it so we’re going with that. Time to get moving again. So…welcome back, both of you who read this on a regular basis. The next update will be forward looking, but I wanted to get the decks cleared first. Consider ‘em cleared. Thanks for sticking with me.